Make or Break

Ask me where I am on a scale of 1-10 today mentally. Go ahead, ask.

Easily a 3/4.

Let me tell you something. This week is a rough week for me - yes I know it's only Tuesday. For the past few days I've been stuck in my thoughts. Frustrated. Over it. Nonchalant. About everything - but mainly - making this movie. I've never wanted to do something so bad in my life...never wanted to accomplish one thing in this way. I look at the goal on our Indiegogo and I flinch. Knowing this is the 3rd campaign we've had for this film. Knowing that I've already maxed out my friends and family. Wondering where the hell this $108K is going to come from in 20 something days. I'm not even gonna lie. I've been going through it. Frustrated at family ignoring me when I ask them to share the link with their friends in the attempts to make goal, family who always shouts that they "got" me and I never see it, texting friends and associates directly to ask for their help and they ignore my messages - raising money is hard. I'm discouraged AF. At the end of the day, what if we don't make this goal - then what? I've always said that Boxer is going to make or break me - right about now, it's really looking like the latter. The fact of the matter is...this is an example of what indie filmmakers face on a daily basis without the backing of a major studio.

Is it worth it? I really don't know. What I do know is that my faith is hanging on by a thread. What I do know is that I'm exhausting every option I have to get this film made...and made how I want it to be made. Not by how anyone wants it to be made because they might be flashing money at me. That's not how I roll.

All I can say is that send some good vibes our way. We're going to need it.